November 9

I can't see what I write and I am upset that I can't tell anyone what's wrong and I am not able to see.

the other day

I have noticed coincidences since I was a kid. I have not noticed any in years. I listened to radio today learning Gord Downey the singer of the Tragically Hip .

October 3

i am finding it hard to write. I am not getting enough mental stimulation and my brain is getting dumb. I am very lost. I now understand scrambled brain or jumbled thoughts.

August 9

I don't like blood and I am nauseous when I see it. I will help how I can but I will feel sick. I have been through too many and feel sick thinking about it. Why I felt like nursing would be not be for me. I love people though.

I am thinking the same way as our parents must have when I was younger. Looking at Peggy's Cove I never saw more than six people there and can remember being alone and sitting beside the lighthouse. I am not able to get over the quantity of visitors and I can only imagine how much my parents see changed.

I am still not able to listen to Slayer. They were on the Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon and I have known people who love them so I gave them another chance. I still am not a fan of heavy rock. I am able to listen to anything else. Today is my five year anniversary for moving on the floor. I am sad because I am admitting I can not care for myself anymore and I need help. I have been here in the facility since December 2012. I just really miss independence and I wish I was. I was 18 years old when I moved out and 34 years old when I moved into long term care and was never married and no kids. I retired at 31 years old. If you are disabled and willing to live below poverty retirement is a possible. I'm glad to be Canadian because I would be dead already in the United States of America. It makes me very sad to think of the suffering people that already suffer from illness. I'm glad the family I have down there have money. I get too upset about it.

Are people who are against abortion only for human life? Mould is alive. Are people Vegan? I never knew anyone who participated in protested or outwardly opposed abortion. I was raised in the Catholic Church and if practised I believe that but I am Pro-choice. I could not personally have an abortion but I think if I was raped I might. I think it's cruel to the woman to be forced to keep it. I'm not able to decide for anyone else but me.