I am still not able to listen to Slayer. They were on the Tonight Show Starring Jimmy Fallon and I have known people who love them so I gave them another chance. I still am not a fan of heavy rock. I am able to listen to anything else. Today is my five year anniversary for moving on the floor. I am sad because I am admitting I can not care for myself anymore and I need help. I have been here in the facility since December 2012. I just really miss independence and I wish I was. I was 18 years old when I moved out and 34 years old when I moved into long term care and was never married and no kids. I retired at 31 years old. If you are disabled and willing to live below poverty retirement is a possible. I'm glad to be Canadian because I would be dead already in the United States of America. It makes me very sad to think of the suffering people that already suffer from illness. I'm glad the family I have down there have money. I get too upset about it.

Are people who are against abortion only for human life? Mould is alive. Are people Vegan? I never knew anyone who participated in protested or outwardly opposed abortion. I was raised in the Catholic Church and if practised I believe that but I am Pro-choice. I could not personally have an abortion but I think if I was raped I might. I think it's cruel to the woman to be forced to keep it. I'm not able to decide for anyone else but me.

June 20

I am having a hard time remembering and I am scared because I might not remember the people I love. I am very sad about this and cry when I think and I consider the pain they will experience watching me deteriorate. I am very tired of loss because I have been loosing my health since 23. I'm often minimizing things I need help with so I ask for less help. I am not getting the help I need. And now I'm not remembering and I am getting confused when I forget. I keep watching TV.