June 26

I have a lot of drafts of the start of a blog I forgot so I will randomly choose one each time I write in August. I have 40 and I have too many. I am really unsure of myself today. I feel my blogs are too short. I am very critical of myself I am not sure of myself either. I was very confident when I came here four and a half years ago. I am sicker (expectedly). I am told expectedly is not a word so I n to find out... I forget so quickly and leave the blog, I forget. Blogs now take days to finish. Oh well I guess I changed. I am a lot more patient too.

June 25

I am one month and nine days until I am 39. I am not ashamed of my age because it's a number and I will always think that. I am half blaming Accounting and the other was a song by Aaliyah age ain't nothing but a number. I loved her voice. I thought her voice was beautiful.

June 17

I am compulsive I am not able to control my self in any way at times and I was able to handle every thing better when I had more caffeine and different food. I have many little things about my health and I have a hard time remembering all the little things. I also was not only dealing with one agency and I was able to talk. Can anyone explain if I am understanding the air gets thinner as you get higher and I have lung problems and live on the eleventh floor get higher than sea level? I had no lung problems when I was at Rogers Pass. I have been across Canada 5 times but I am not sure. And it is not return too.

June 11

I thought this was funny and I wondered why we raise our pinkies with tea. It is French and how a person indicated that they were Sexually ill. Chelsea Handler taught me that and I just had to share.

June 10

Happy birthday to many people today I am thinking of you. I know many people who were born today. I am fatigued easily and I take a break and forget what I am doing. I am easily distracted. ADD isn't what I have.

I don't like it when I please other people because I agree with something so that the other person can leave. I am not caring about me.

I was wish I remembered the number of this blog

I hate to admit it but I no longer as creative as a year ago. I am very sad if I am like this in the future. I am not adjusting well. I hate admitting it. I never used the word hate until this year. Well I did not write it but I said it. I don't like the word and stopped saying that word trying to omit negative words from my vocabulary. I went years without using it which I am very proud of.