I keep saying I need to say a lot...

but I quickly forget. I am overheating daily a few times because it is almost a regular thing. If only my body temperature changed as quickly. I am forgetting again. I get so upset about it and I try to think of how I can change the situation. I think I need more caffeine then I have because of family genetics. My Mom and Grand mother loved coffee so I am thinking I am a tea person and I am not having enough caffeine as a coffee drinker. I am also receiving the loading sign on YouTube and that helps me forget. I am so lost and that makes me sad. I really understand why marijuana is often used for MS. it helps you forget and it helps numbthe pain physically and mentally.

One Year

I have had my tablet for a year now and I think I have to spend the rest of my life writing what I need. I hate writing it because I edit what I need help with to accommodate the person who is helping me instead. I'm not able to concentrate in nursing care as I am required to be able to receive treatment when it is offered. I'm loosing any zest for any thing needing energy. I hear stuff I don't know I know. Sadly I loose track of what I am writing. I'm pontificating. What's the definition to pontificate

Next Blog

I am using the blog as a forum for my thoughts. I feel very bad for when I was younger and I cheated on my boyfriend. Now that I know that I might have had multiple sclerosis it makes sense. I never cheated on anyone else. I kissed him when I was close to breaking up with another person. I am too considerate. So Jamie I am sorry for all the pain I caused. I really am very sorry for being selfish but I was young and thought I knew everything but I am a lot humbled by growing up. I have downloaded a 90s compilation and it was nostalgic. I have been alone for 10 and I am unsure if I can be in a relationship again. Being sick makes me more apologetic.

Go I'm very sorry about not I got the I stopped talking because started getting frustrated with themselves and their stress is something I Naturally feel. I try to avoid any negative feeling and I feel this and I avoid speaking. I naturally do a lot and I don't know I am. I stopped talking because started getting frustrated with themselves and their stress is something I Naturally feel. I try to avoid any negative feeling and I feel this and I avoid speaking. I naturally do a lot and I don't know I am. I stopped talking because started getting frustrated with themselves and their stress is something I Naturally feel. I try to avoid any negative feeling and I feel this and I avoid speaking. I naturally do a lot and I don't know I am.

A challenge

I am going to write a blog. I am not full of topics like when I was younger.I am not as quick mentally but I am older than I was and even though each person who is have a memory issues. My Mom and Grand mother had issues with memory and I have inherited a?let lot of the health issues. I hide things from myself so I am crafty and I am a lot like my Grandmother so issues with memory and the brain.

#7

My goal s a blog everyday. I have no job so I will not have that as a reason why. I am a different person in the way I approached blogging as I am caring much less about how I am portrayed. What will stay me is my health. This is one.

#6

I know I can get fast at blogging. I am able to luckily. I would go even crazier if I did not. I am so tired of waiting I think of how people did before they had technology. I can only imagine. I am so tired. I will explain my exciting life. I am now a mute quadriplegic. I read Helen Keller books as a kid so I am lucky to not blind too. I also think about what I could not have and I am humbled. I am able to read and don't have to learn braille.